Alive

Not sure what to post...not much new going on in my world. I'm surviving. That's about it really. I love San Diego. LOVE LOVE LOVE it here, but I haven't been out much to see the sights or anything. My time has been consumed with sleeping, or not sleeping, or unpacking, or shuttling a kid to and fro.

It's weird, because my social life just grew by leaps and bounds due to The Cat In The Hat's job and my responsibilities? obligations? that go along with it...not sure what the right word is, but it's along those lines. Sort of. It's a military thing and I can't really explain it. Anyway, lets just say my social life is no longer dormant and the mental stress that comes with that is taking it's toll along with the other issues I'm dealing with that provide their own helping of mental stress and anxiety. Such is life...if it's not one thing it's another and each thing makes us stronger in the end right? If that's the case, I should look Hulk Hogan by now...minus the chin hair.


So...the house is coming along. A person of stronger character would have been unpacked and organized by now, but I'm more laid back. I open a box till I find what I'm looking for and then I'm done for the day. My delivery was on the 9th of July and I'm still not unpacked. I guess that should suggest that I dont' need a lot of the crap that I have, but when I open boxes and find stuff, I'm paralyzed to make a decision to chuck it.

One thing I DID do, was go to Comic Con. Not in the traditional sense...I didn't actually go IN, I just hung around outside the convention center for a couple of hours and soaked in the atmosphere. What fun! Next year, I WILL be going, and yeah, I'm one of those Geeks that will probably go in costume. REally...is there any other way?

Thing One is preparing to move out in September, a move I wholeheartedly approve and encourage. Our relationship can only improve by such a move, though after a total 2year oldesque meltdown on my part and a long heart to heat (laying down the law) on my part the next morning, things have improved tenfold. I know he's just as excited to be on his own as I am for him.

Thing Two started school last week. (or was it earlier this week?) They're on a year round track out here...out in June, start up in July...long holidays and other breaks in between. This will be his senior year if all goes well.

DH is on a boat. He comes, he goes. One day he's here, next day he's not. It's a life that both frustrates me and affords me opportunities to see and do. When he's home we live it up, when he's gone I spend my time recouperating.

Though I'm happier here in San Diego than most places I've lived, I find myself falling into my old trap of not leaving my bedroom during the day and leaving my house as little as possible. If it's not something that I HAVE to leave the house for, then I don't. Not healthy! I'm slowly making changes. There's much to see and do, but don't have the luxury of doing them quite yet. I'm working on putting a schedule into effect for myself that forces me to be all that I can be. I've found a nature center nearby, that I've filled out an application for to volunteer, and I'm putting together my design studio (formerly called craft room) in order to set up my etsy site with some degree of permanance. I hope to keep myself out of the the retail rat race with it. We'll see. Once Thing One is on his own, Thing Two has reliable transport to and from school and CIH (cat in hat) is on a regular sched....um....nevermind that part...once things settle and calm down and I know what to expect from my near future, I'll be better able to do things on a whim like I used to. I miss my spontaneity...a planned schedule and living by the clock or calendar has NEVER allowed me any modicum of spiritual peace..it's just not how I roll. I do not thrive in that sort of environment and yet that's how I find myself living at the moment. It cant' be avoided, so I'm rolling with it the best I know how while trying to hold on to my sanity at the same time. I liken it to holding onto an umbrella during a tornado. It might carry me a thousand miles from where I started but at least I'll land with an inverted umbrella in my hand!